Beau' Chocolat -- Beautiful Chocolate

Block these buttaheads ya’ll insist on reblogging off my dash 

& of course other things that I’d rather not see. 

I’m mad I didn’t know about this earlier. These have been the best 2 months of my Tumblr life, lol. 

That loves me

and SHOWS it. 

Is that too much to ask?

I wanna be able to be comfortable with one another at all times. Be weird and goofy around each other. Take cute, strange, random pictures together. Let people know that we’re together and that we love each other. 

Like.. 

*frustrated sigh*

It’s like every dude that I deal with is always so emotionally guarded. Am I suppose to be the one that has to break that shell? Cauuuseee… I don’t think it should be that difficult. 

I’m not that difficult. 

Or at least I try not to be. 

I’m a good chick, and they know that but they still keep this wall up. The fuck is up? 

I just want a little affection & not just during sex. That’s all I ask. 

beauchocolat:

& that’s the way it goes….

I asked her could I borrow 60 to cover the rest of my bills for this month and I would pay her back next pay day and she told me yeah, but I didn’t have to pay her back because that’s what mother’s are for. 

:) 

I love her. 

Sometimes she bugs me, but man.. She comes thru for me a lot. She’s a blessing. I’m very grateful for her. 

I’m still not quite use to my car, lol. Everytime I get out and look at it I’m like “that’s my car?… cool”. There’s some things that need to be fixed, but overall it’s a decent car. Kind of small for me, but whatever, that’s just less gas I have to put in it. Lol. 

I’m really happy I finally got it tho. 

It’s a blessing. 

I had been complaining and complaining and two days after I was really done with the situation, I found this one. Good stuff. God be lookin’ out, lol. 

If my stomach gets flat, I’mma still be dressin like I do now lol. 

I don’t like people looking at me, so I’m not gonna do or wear anything that gets extra looks. I already get stared at on a regular basis, I effing hate it. I’m not gonna be walkin around in bikini’s or tube tops if I lose this lil stomach lol. 

People thought I was “fat” or “huge” all thru high school because I always wore hoodies and big shirts. It was just because I dislike attention.. quite strongly actually.  

Well public attention.. The internet is kinda like whatever because I can’t feel ppl looking at me. 

But yeah.. The way I dress is gonna continue to be what it is as I get smaller. 

Gone send me a text talkin bout 

“I know I’m just your auntie, but you or your sister didn’t call me and say happy mother’s day or nothing.. but it’s cool” 

FIRST OFF! If it were cool, you wouldn’t have spoken on it. Salty ass. 

SECOND! I said Happy Mother’s day to my mother and aunts via FB and tagged them all in it. And I bought her ass a card, I just don’t have a car so I couldn’t take it to her. 

THIRD! Your kids didn’t fucking call my mom and wish her shit, but she ALWAYS does for them. You haven’t done shit just to do it for me or my sis EVER! You come pick me up from work, but I gotta give you $10 everytime just to do it and you live around the corner from my apartment. 

GTFOH. 

Smh.. Now she textin me askin me can I “bring” her some gas money 0_o… yeah… okay. IGNORED!

I forgot to update ya’ll.. 

I no longer deal with “lemon drop” (for anyone that cared, lol). That yellow boy that I was so deep into.. He’s an asshole. Smh. 

We’ll probably just be distant friends from now on. I don’t dislike him or anything, I just no longer have the urge to talk to him and deal with him like I had been feeling. We’ll never be what I ultimately wanted us to be, he’s not ready for all that.. I don’t think he ever will be, so I’m over it. 

So, if you see me talking about a guy, it’s not him lol. 

It’s my ex……. 

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-_-

I told him, “hell to the no. I never even sent u naked pics why would I post them to the internet”.. he was like “You right… you never did send me naked pics.. WHY NOT?!” lol..

He never asked and he was seeing me naked on the regular back then, so I didn’t think he needed em.. Guess he did. 

I’ll send some when he leaves for training for his new job next month tho.. Mass amounts of them. 

“If she truly loves you, she’ll never leave you no matter how mad she gets” 

“You don’t give up on people you love” 

And all those other dumb ass quotes about “true love” just upsets me and makes me want to stay further away from the shit ya’ll call “love” 

So you mean to tell me that you can cheat on me, piss me off constantly, not give me even half of the effort I give you and I’m suppose to stay if I “love” you. FUCK OUTTA HERE.

Newsflash: It’s not called “giving up”, it’s called realizing you’ve taken enough of someone’s bullshit & letting go of a situation that’s hurting you. You can still love someone and not be with them. 

I believe that once you love someone, you always love them. Your love for them changes, you can go from “being in love” to just “loving” someone. You still care, you don’t wish them any harm, you want the best for them but you don’t have to be with them in that way anymore. 

Love doesn’t mean you need to be together. Some things just don’t need to happen. It’s not always in the best interested for either party, but people don’t understand that. That’s how people end up staying in hurtful situations for years. They love the person, so they feel they have to stay with them. You don’t!.. Let it breath. You’ll be okay.